I thought I had already been through and gotten
over it a billion times before. So why is it coming
back now ?It's not like I want it to happen.
Sometimes bad things happen for no reason, no
purpose. How can i leave the past behind, when it
keeps finding ways to get to my heart. The truth is,
everyone's going to hurt you.
(to the one who always claim that i'm not good enough )I'm sorry. I can't be perfect. I can't live up to your
expectations. YOU used to said everyone around you
have no brains, doesn't want to think, stupid and etc.
Yeah, so what ? and YOU think we didn't felt the same
about you ? It's just that we keep it inside and wouldn't
tell you the truth cause it's a great disappointment to you.
Words hurt more than anything else can. Because they last,
sometimes forever.
I'm barely eighteen. I've had my share of hurt and pain and
life's a living hell sometimes. Nobody seems to understand
what I really need.Oh, for the love of peace, please leave me
alone ! Stop asking ! Stop telling me what to do ! How would
you know ? You live in a totally different world from me.
I'm nothing compared to your expectations of excellent
acheivement in life. You always think you are right, and
everyone is wrong. Why can't you just accept me for who I am?
Dad's too busy with his company, Mom just doesn't seems to
to care much about me. Not like they're to be blamed. Now,
I can't get it out of my head, it keeps haunting me.
I'm strong now, but I learned the hard way. Friends say I
take it too personally, and that's because I'm grow is such
a way. That I'm in a war with myself. This house occupies
9 people but it's so empty. Like how I feel inside. Pure,
empty nothingness caused by pain and failure that YOU
always put me in. Numb. Everything I try to do ends up
a mistake to YOU. Another and another until it's all a heap
of failures on top of strong-willed but utterly useless work.
YOU say it's entirely for your own good. Gosh, if it's for
my own good, why are you being so mean when I try to
explain myself. YOU wouldn't listen to my reasons before
blaming and accusing me.
All I wanted to do was collapse in someone's arms and
cry today...but there wasn't anyone there to catch me.
Leaving my teddy and I alone.
