beat.of.my.heart

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Thursday, October 8, 2009
5:45 PM

TOO MUCH is my problem now.

i care too much
i work too much
i want too much
i hope too much
i think too much

but where's the line ?
how much is consider as too much
just tell me right on my face if i'm too much
because i might cross over the line without knowing it

everyone's saying i'm so hardworking, too much
but my results show it all. NO !
being smart and being hardworking is a different world

if i'm going isolate myself
alone in the island,
it will be today

roller coaster day
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
10:00 PM

it was 7.30 in the morning when i reach HELP.
i sat in the computer lab, slowly took phone out
enjoying my FLY FM channel trough phone while FB
until Justin arrived early also, and met me
we sat in front of the computer for like an hour
until it's nearly time for our 10 am class
WEDNESDAY Is Just Not A Good DAY anymore for her
everything seems to be not in the right place for her
she came into the class late for there're not
enough parking space in the main campus.
when she walked into the class with a super red shirt
on it, it's about something vulgar.
my friend who sat next to me and i laugh at her shirt.
there're not enough space for her to fit in our row,
so she ended up sitting alone in the last row
when class finished, she the usual talker does not
sound even a word, joke, or comment anything about lecture
as usual, we 3 walked to kpd d for our chem lab
my friend and i even said something's wrong with her
so quiet. we took the lift to level 3, i said it's very unusual
to be so quiet today-must make her laugh. i crap + lame joke
in the lift until we reached our class. i put my bag on the
table, settled down, went to toilet and came out.
the silence beckoned. she burst into tears
everyone who's there go near her and ask if she's alright
a born emphatic. she's so stress. i understood feelings
very well. helpless and poignant feelings started
crowding my senses, filled with heavy self-pity.
i'm scared to approach her and ask any further reasons
from that moment, i understand this
"a true friend will cry for you"
i closed my eyes, letting my feelings construct a picture,
memories of yesterday's lameless sms making up
broken pieces of a puzzle. i heard it's some personal
matters which's intricating her.
i just want to tell her that she's not alone and be strong
hope she will gain back her true self tomorrow, PP !

dead blog
Friday, October 2, 2009
12:00 PM

so sorry
my blog is dead
YES you're in a dead blog now
i'm really busy with my life
spending less time sitting in front of the com (YESH !!)
at least happy with the busy and hectic schedule
mock exams, piano , college, housechores, birthday etc

"live like there's no tomorrow"
cause i'm scared of one day my world will be in a sudden dark
*touchwood*
oh it's already 12.00am ::happy mooncake festival everyone::